So yeah I've now officially graduated from high school and trying to pursue the artistic avenue in collage but my mother doesn't want me to leave. Now everyone else including my teachers, employers, friends, and the rest of my family want me to go succseed in getting a degree and to start living life but everytime I try to talk to my mom she just goes balistic, starts yelling and freaks out. Even my friends freakin mom said I need to go! It's really aggrivating cause I love my mom and I know she means well but I need to live my own life. I mean I want her to be a part of my life but not in control of it. I have to make my own decisions no one else can make them for me, it's a part of growing up but she doesn't seem to get that.

Sometimes I feel like I'm forever trapt in a locked room and no one has the key. Forever doomed to stay in one place not knowing what lies just outside the door. I pray someone will find me and free me from this place of num safety, this place of empty words and dark silence. What price must I pay for my freedom? What must I do to be saved? Does anyone know the answer? Will I ever see the light of day? ~Help~